“But how are you really doing?” The realities of adoption, 4 kids and big life change.
October 10th, 2011
I can’t tell you how many times, over the past few months, someone has stopped me, looked deep into my eyes and said, “But how are you really doing?” Maybe it’s because I look a little frazzled while chasing two toddlers in opposite directions around the church halls. Or perhaps it’s because on top of that my work has increased significantly in the past few months. Or possibly they’ve just heard all the adoption horror stories and can’t believe that we doubled our family and are still standing.
So here’s the completely honest, totally transparent truth: We’re still standing. We’re often exhausted. But we feel like we’re won the family lottery. I can’t imagine that out of the 147 million orphans in the world, there would be any two more suited to be Littons. They’re full of energy. They love to laugh. They know what they want. And they seem to be picking up my dancing skills (which could be social suicide later in life, but makes for fun family dance parties now).
But don’t misunderstand what I’m saying. Adoption is hard. Having four kids, three pre-school aged, is really hard. But following God’s will is not. On the tough days, I fall back on the knowledge that if God ever called us to anything in life, it’s this. The first thirty days I clung to that as my promise that we hadn’t made a mistake. There were a few days that I was continually in tears and really just wanted my life back. But when I know I’m on a mission bigger than my own, that perspective carries me. And really, isn’t that what life is all about? Regardless of what we’re doing on a daily basis, we should live as if we’re on a mission bigger than ourselves.
“but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint” (Isaiah 40:31)
Have you ever had to take hope in the fact that you’re on a mission bigger than yourself?